what do your write when you have everything to say. when everything is so convoluted clear in your head. when you can't fix anything as hard as you try. i've dug a hole six feet deep. buried alive but not strong enough to die. aging fast sped up truth. it's all so hard. troubling times, trying to forget. push and scream dance it through but it doesn't leave. fake smiles and false reality. it's not so hard to see. truly. look at my face. under eye bags black and blue. nightmares of abandonment. can you figure it out? figure out what. self placed exile. hitchhike to get back to where you started but no one will offer a ride. for now walk the miles without shoes and proper protection. cast a light and everything will be alright. it grows back. slow but true. purer and more real. faces pass. pass judgment. don't you see? what do i see? false sense of reality born. mirrors lie but what do you expect. living in that dream world makes for false expectations only to be crushed under proper light. where are we in this strange new world. it's difficult to tell exactly what is right and wrong. virtual ruin. rise and fall in succession. but what if what goes up doesn't come down? where do we go from there. point A has moved distorting pictures. burn the past. we were all so silly then. what once was knowledge... truth is petty...